My Blessing in Disguise

The alarm goes off and I blissfully start singing along to the alarm tune. "shhhhhhush mummy" comes from the other room. 

It's funny I'm actually a morning person - but my son isn't. It's usually the other way round with kids, so I've been quite lucky.

If I am late to uni, it's usually something to do with Jayson. He's a really grumpy little boy in the mornings and refuses to get out of bed - let alone brush his teeth, eat breakfast or get dressed. Every step is a fight and by the time I leave home I feel like it's the end of the day and I'm ready to go back to bed! 

When I finally drop him off at nursery, I take a big sigh of relief whilst running to my lecture. Then all of a sudden I realise that I already really really miss the little bugger! How can this be? I ask myself,  whilst spilling my costa latte on my wrist from the power walking.

I finish university and have a little internal strop because I can't stay with friends or go to the events that afternoon. I walk the long walk to pick my son up from nursery thinking; what am I going to cook tonight? And why is it so cold?

I get to his nursery and his face always lights up as soon as he sees me, "mummmmmy mummmmy". All of a sudden I am stress-free. As we walk to the bus stop he tells me about his day and what he had for lunch. He even makes jokes and asks me if I'm okay. Friday's are fun because we usually stop to get some snacks and maybe a new DVD to spend our Friday night in. He's like a best friend to me. 

I have moments when I sigh for a simpler life, I look around at girls my age and I wonder what I would be doing if I did not have a son. But then I realise how rewarding and truly beautiful my life is, because of my son. He makes me smile on rainy days and looks after me when I'm ill. He's a blessing in disguise and I love being his mummy. No matter how difficult some days are, it's always worth it in the end.

I am at a stage in life where I feel extremely blessed and fortunate. Happiness and Success will never feel the same without my son standing beside me. After all, he got me to where I am today.